BY JESSICA SCHIEBER
One thing that I have been thinking about a lot for the past few months is what my future will look like, and that is terrifying.
I have never been one to really think about the next step, as long as I’m working on a step, I feel successful.
The future has always been a scary thought to me; I have no way of knowing where it will lead.
I like to be a person who knows what’s going on and what plans are, I have no way of knowing what the future will be.
I will be graduating from school next fall, and I have no idea what will change in my life. Up to that moment I’ve had a schedule, a day to get through. I will no longer have any sort of expectation of what is next.
Sure, I will find a job, but what if that job takes me far away from my home and family?
My family and I are a lot closer than I realize most families are. This also scares me, because what if it changes? What if I lose my support system?
I don’t feel great thinking about what comes next, but I’m going to keep walking towards that step, because I know that forward is the only way to go.
Dwelling on the past doesn’t do anyone any good.
I know that no matter where the future takes me, that I will be where I am meant to be.
For all I know I could end up in a completely different country, but I could also end up halfway across America.
Wherever I am I know that I will always have people back in Oklahoma who can see me shining.
Future is scary, yes, but it also is full of so many promises.
I don’t know what it holds, but I know that I will be living my best life when I get there.
I could be a successful author; I could end up being a sports reporter or I could be living a great life as some publishing company. I have options, I have to remind myself of that a lot.
I am not set on one path for the rest of my life. My life is as fluid as the river.
I can do whatever my heart desires. I could become an English teacher in a foreign country for all I know.
Whatever happens I know that I will at least be prepared for it.
If we let fear of the future stop us from moving forward we will never become the best version of ourselves.
I love who I am and where I am from, but I also know that I was made more than some dirt roads in Oklahoma.
Growing means trusting the future and that is terrifying.
I’m learning to let the future come and to be prepared for whatever happens when it does come.
Does it ever scare me?
Of course it does, but I have faith that from my work I have done that I will be perfectly fine. I trust that my education has prepared me for whatever decision I make to become.
So the future still scares me sometimes but I don’t let that prevent me from moving forward.
When we stop, we fail. If we keep pushing forward we will see that the future wasn’t so scary after all.
Maybe I will get married, maybe I’ll have a family to raise and love. Maybe I’ll become more successful than I ever dreamed of being. Maybe my life gets so much better.
These maybes are the reason I keep pushing forward. Having the chance to see what life may hold for me. Knowing that whatever is out there for me will be just for me.
The future seems easier with these thoughts. The maybes make life seem lighter. The future has a plan for me and I have a plan for it.
Thinking on the positives of the future outweights the negatives that will happen in the future.
Hurt is going to come, but so will joy. Pain is a part of growth. Growth makes you into who you are meant to be.
I am learning to love the future and how to prepare for it when it comes. I am learning that fear can paralyze movements that are meant to be taken.
I know that whatever it is I am meant for, I will be great at it. Whatever job comes my way I will work hard at it.